today is the 5 year anniversary of 9/11. my waking up in the morning, getting ready for work, taking the train in to work, walking to work, sitting here at work...all quite ordinary...just like that morning before all the chaos started.

i really thought we'd go to war or something: yes, we're in the middle of the war OUT THERE, but i meant war back here, in the american soils. i thought it'd never be the same again. i thought i'd have to go back to canada.

but it is the same again.

people stopped being helpful, being nice, and just back to basics. and i am too - back to where i was, on September 10th, 2001 and before: greedy, jealous, full of sin. you'd think this would be a wake-up call but most of us are back to "normal."

god, i feel so sad.